I've given away my heart,
So it could be torn into pieces,
He left me with the feelings of betrayal and being forgotten.
I'm so in love, yet so alone,
with two years thrown away.
Feeling his absence hurts the most.
My constant urge to call is almost taking over.
ni Ruby Ann Q. Gonzales
While on the other side,
my cycle of feelings starts with rage.
Slowly going into sadness, rage again, desperation, devastation, and finally denial.
Every morning I open my eyes to emptiness,
Seeing a long black hallway
with nothing in between.
This is so-called love has taken over my life,
leaving me distracted.
Days pass by now,
my emotions are going crazy.
Leaving me no choice but to vomit.
To empty my pessimistic thoughts.
To stop thinking that my life is over.
To stop my tears from falling every night.
To stop feeling like my heart
has been shattered into pieces.
The hardest part of moving on is the
jealousy on top of all my misery.
But soon enough, I'll go to bed realizing
I survived this struggle.
I need to escape my depression to
And regain my strength to love again.